Self-forgivness...

I forgive my self that I have allowed and accepted my self to fear being alone.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear having to do or face something alone.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear seperating from my partner.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to depend on my partner.
I forgive my self that i have accepted and allowed my self to "need" my partner.
I forgive my slef that I have accpeted and allowed my self to create a relationship of dependence with my partner.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to create a relationship in/with fear of seperation with/of my partner.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to hide within the relationship created with my partner.
I forgive my slef that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear facing my self.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear my self.
I forgive my self that i have accepted and allowed my self to convince my self that i am not "good enough".
I forgive my self that i have accepted and allowed my self to constantly underestimate my capacities.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear stopping my hiding.
I forgive my self that I have accepted and allowed my self to fear taking daily responsabilities.
I forgive my self that i have accepted and allowed my self to almost never complete a task threw lazyness,procastination,fear,self-judgment and/or self-underestimation.

Self-forgiving threw writting

I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to fear change.I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to fear making efforts.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to fear not being in a confortable position.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to blind my self with entertainment threw fear of change,making efforts and not being confortable.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to blind my self with entertainment to not see,not accept the truth of the existence of,and not take reaponsabilty for the abuse that is going on in the world and the abuse that i have accepted,allowed and supported.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to support abuse in the search of profit,knowing i am abusing of any form of life.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to search for profit,disregarding the consequences on others.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to abuse of others and any form of life in any way(physically,mentally) for profit.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to get satisfaction out of abusing others or any form of life in any way.
I forgive my self that i have accpeted and allowed my slef to enjoy the profit and/or satisfaction gained threw the abuse of life.

Me stopping to smoke (part 2)

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We wouldn't need boundarys if we were trully honest !

Somone once sed (he is of course not the only one to say this) that it is impossible to reach true equality and true honesty evryone at the same time.he sed that humans allways needed limitations and boundarys to keep them going "straight" because they will never be able to keep them selves "straight" by there own will.he sed that humans will always abuse and there will always be abusif poeple.he sed that if evry one would follow the same religion it would be a "better life" for all.that religion puts common boundarys for evry one and that if we would all trully go allong with the restrictions imposed by religion,we would have and "equal and peacefull" life for all.he sed that humans can not accomplish true peace and true equal life for all by them selves and that the only way it was possible was threw restrictions,limitations, boundarys, strict rules. he sed "why would I change if there will always be somone else doing the same thing?"

Now,what that person didnt think about is that this construct he is relying on will be present as long as poeple expect others to change before they do.If evry one is thinking "why should I change if he is not?" then of course nothing will change.But if evry one would take responsibility for them selves with no regarde to other poeple's dishonesty,lazyness and greed,then there is a very possible change.the only reason it hasnt happend YET,is that no one is focussing on the true issues wich are one's allowences.these allowences are the main cause of this fucked up world we're in.nooo,evry one prefers sitting back and sayin "why should I be the one doing the effort?".it is obvious that if we all change,the world will change.what this person also forgot is that religion causes numbers of abuse threw supression and restrictions.its like taking a toy from a baby,he will want it more as soon.if we would really take our selves in hand there will be no need for restrictions and evry thing will accessible for all in honesty,respect and equality.